switching to decaf.

caffeine has never effected me late at night. i had a nice cup of coffee about 9:00 tonight. and now i am wide awake. i'm not completely convinced it's the coffee's fault, however. i tend to be a thinker. i let my mind go in circles about the most nonsensical things. either way, it's 1:29 am and i am wide awake. i laid in bed bed for an hour and then decided to get up. but i have nothing to do. i suppose i could work on my geology. that would put me sleep quickly. i could read, but i'm not really in the mood. i thought about taking a hot shower. more so that when i wake up in the morning completely exhausted i won't have to worry about it. but, i am afraid that would wake up my suitemates and they are both very tired from a long trip back from tejas. what's a girl to do? maybe i will put on a sermon or some soft music? we'll see.

sitting here is not going to speed up the process any. it's only making me think more.
a lot is going on here. designed for life was incredible. i am so excited to tell you all about it. at a later date.
also, i am on a craft kick. it's bad news. i am going to drive home this weekend to get my sewing machine. this will probably result in even more of a lack in classes and a social life. but, i am okay with that.

the pink washed out of my hair rather quickly. i'm not too happy about it. i liked feeling like a rockstar. i think i might get a permanent streak put it in. would that be too crazy? we'll see.

alright. i am going to attempt to get some sleep. hopefully i can fall asleep by 2. that would still give me a solid 6 hours of sleep which i can function on...

more blogging will come soon.
love from room 110.

running.

i want to hop on a plane and run. well, fly to somewhere and then run. not run away from anything, but rather into something. into something bigger than me. bigger than the little world i have allowed myself to become consumed with. a life of abandon. i think that's what it's referred to as. maybe it sounds ridiculous. i don't know. i feel like my heart is being pulled in so many different directions that i don't even know what to do with myself. i might explode. and in the midst of it all i am reminded that 'God Reigns.' i know he is in control. i just want to do something great. i want to be a world changer. not a stagnant person who sits around and talks about the "what ifs." there are just so many things that my heart is drawn to that i don't even know where to begin:

greece. international justice mission. the world race. going home. dusty feet. advertising. bosnia. croatia. teaching english. sex trafficking. orphans. young women. being involved in church. living out of a backpack. africa.

and the list just continues.
it's hard to navigate and begin to think about what i want to do when i just want to do everything.

coming home.

home is where the heart is.
my heart, i think, will be at EU for a very long time.
it's a fantastically wonderful week full of fun and memory making.
i will say it was exhausting and for that reason i am glad it's over.
it's weird to think it was my last homecoming as a student. bittersweet.
i look forward to the days of reminiscing and catching up.
for now, though...i'll keep making memories and doing things worth remembering.

okay...enough of the sappy non-sense.
here's some pics:

please pray.

a million different things are going on right now and i just feel like we all need to pray. if you think about it please pray for my family, specifically. they are having a really hard time right now. my youngest sister, in particular, really needs a lot of prayer and encouragement. i am doing fine, just trusting the lord. i have been incredibly encouraged by Him lately and i rest in knowing that all things work together for good to those who love him and are called according to his purposes.

thank you for your prayers.
i will update you with homecoming festivities and pictures soon.

love to all.