small things.

so, it's the small things that God does for me that really make me smile on the inside.

The Lord GOD has given Me the tongue of disciples,
That I may know how to sustain the weary one with a word
He awakens Me morning by morning,
He awakens My ear to listen as a disciple.
Isaiah 50:4

this verse came to me last week at about 3:00 in the morning. i really do believe that is part of what God has called me to. part of my eternal purpose. so, i'm accpeting it, claiming it, and embracing it.

today was a long day. it's been a good day but i have a lot of things on my mind and my heart is just kind of heavy. so, i'm sitting at a coffee shop and i was grabbing for some cash when an old fortune cookie fortune came out.

"a kind word will keep someone warm for years"

i'm not a superstious person by any means. but i smiled. it was a nice little reminder from the Lord that there is more to all of this than my hum-drum whatever. there is a purpose to all that extends farther than i can even begin to imagine. and that, that's worth going forward.

motivation.

i don't have any.

it's 11:33 pm. i've done very little homework. i have a project that i have yet to finish. i haven't even put a very big dent in it. oh my gosh. i just do not have the energy to do anything. i don't feel well. i want sleep. one hour and twenty six minutes left until i can lay my head on my pillow. i was going to do laundry tonight...was going to. now i am not.

oh, this is not good. i have got to do something with my life.

happy news! my jayhawks won the championship. it was a great game and well worth a sore throat for a few days. i think i entertained a few people along with the great game. it was wonderful and amazing. rock chalk!

blah. only two minutes have passed. speaking of things passing. i think i might pass out. arg. not really, though.
am i even making any sense at all? no.

happy birthday to my one and only faithful reader. well, the only one i know of. i suppose i could have some secret admirers out there...or some crazy, creepo stalkers. either way...it's amy's birthday. feliz cumpleanos, friend.

i guess that's about all i have to talk about for now. i hope you haven't lost more than a few iq points from reading this.

rock chalk.

i bleed crimson and blue.

i like mustard.

And He said to them, "Because of the littleness of your faith; for truly I say to you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you.
Matthew 17:20

Lately, I have been wondering why in the world I don't tap into the power that God has presented me with. Faith. I suppose that is what it is. I lack it most times. I came across this video and I was so challenged. The power of God is so great and we use do little of it. I'm not really sure why. I'm kind of sick of sitting back and hearing about all of the amazing things that God is doing and not having stories of my own to tell. I want more faith. Jesus says that the smallest of faith can move mountains. I want that kind of faith. How small mine must be if it's being compared to a mustard seed. I like mustard. I want more faith. More of Jesus all around. God is doing things in my life. He is changing who I am. I can see it everyday. I wish it was just a push of a button and I could just be better in a matter of seconds. Unfortunately, it's this whole life-long journey thing. I guess I should learn to deal with it.



The cry of my heart is to serve the Lord on a daily basis in whatever ways I can. I want to make small impacts on eternity everyday. I want to see lost people come to know God in an amazing way that changes other people too. I want the very essence of who I am to so reflect and exude Jesus that I look different to people. I want Jesus to draw people to Himself through me. It's going to happen. I will get there. Not of my own accord or on my own schedule. But God is doing a work. I am faithful that He will continue it until the great day of completion. Amen for that.