Tuesday, October 14, 2008

running.

i want to hop on a plane and run. well, fly to somewhere and then run. not run away from anything, but rather into something. into something bigger than me. bigger than the little world i have allowed myself to become consumed with. a life of abandon. i think that's what it's referred to as. maybe it sounds ridiculous. i don't know. i feel like my heart is being pulled in so many different directions that i don't even know what to do with myself. i might explode. and in the midst of it all i am reminded that 'God Reigns.' i know he is in control. i just want to do something great. i want to be a world changer. not a stagnant person who sits around and talks about the "what ifs." there are just so many things that my heart is drawn to that i don't even know where to begin:

greece. international justice mission. the world race. going home. dusty feet. advertising. bosnia. croatia. teaching english. sex trafficking. orphans. young women. being involved in church. living out of a backpack. africa.


and the list just continues.
it's hard to navigate and begin to think about what i want to do when i just want to do everything.

1 comments:

michelle said...

i just love your heart. (and i don't even really know you! love it)

go. do it. do it all. dream. and BIG. :)

and let me just say, those desires don't go away after having experienced them ... but increase. believe me, i know. cause i'm pretty much still where you are after having "done" half that list. that's meant to be an encouragement. i know it doesn't sound like it, but yeah. keep reaching. keep seeing what the Lord has out there for you. sometimes we forget that his plans are pretty ridiculous :)

but above all .... more than just DOING things, BE who you ARE. those things are in your heart for a reason. you've been made a specific way. and by being you, they will just flow out naturally. so .... no pressure. :)

seriously love this post though. you're awesome friend.

michelle